Acceptance of an illness is incredibly difficult. Especially an illness that is so misunderstood and stigmatized. Remaining in a place of denial, secrecy, and self-pity made healing from the inside out take much longer. Full acceptance of my illness did not appear until after my fourth bout with the “beast”. This is the endearing name for depression and anxiety that barges into my life. It’s like a savage devouring my ability to engage in life.
“Accept what comes to you totally and completely so that you can appreciate it, learn from it, and then let it go.”
–Deepak Chopra
Once I completely accepted that depression and anxiety were part of me and did not define me, I was able to tame the “beast”. I found ways to not only survive but to thrive. Today, I appreciate the “beast” for it taught me lessons, which enhance my existence. The ability to appreciate each well day as a blessing has created a life lived in the present, rather than in the past or future.
Learn to Let Go of Worry
Another notable lesson is letting go of worry. I was consumed with fear that the “beast” would return in between my first three bouts. As a matter of fact, it did reoccur with a vengeance. Finally, after the fourth episode, I decided to stop wasting well time by carrying the burden of worry. Significantly, I let go and decided I would celebrate my time in wellness. Certainly, I would seek help in my time of darkness. What a relief!
Today it’s been 18 years since my last tangle with the “beast”. I am convinced that when I accepted my illness, released my secret, and relieved myself of worry, the “beast” was tamed.
Reflection Questions
What did it take for you to completely accept your illness? More importantly, what lessons did you learn in the process?
About the Author
Carol A. Kivler is a nationally recognized mental health speaker, international executive coach/trainer, and author. Most importantly, she is a passionate consumer advocate for mental health. Carol is available for speaking engagements in the U.S and internationally. Email or call Carol at (609) 882-8988.
